In my previous Tidbits post, I focused on the use of patient writings and drawings in psychiatric care. That post focused on one case of catatonia, and how the clock-drawing task can yield useful diagnostic information and evidence of treatment response.
There is great value in asking your patient to write something—anything—for you, without any immediate clinical end in mind. For those familiar with serious mental illness, your patient’s written work can add significant depth and richness to the treatment, opening new avenues of communication that spoken conversation cannot fully capture. Sometimes it serves as a prompt for an important discussion that is difficult to bring up directly; other times it may just let them know you’re interested in them as a person.
When the patient allows, I save these documents and rummage through them with some regularity, inevitably noticing a new detail, or recalling something about them I had forgotten. Below are selections from five different patients, all of them treated on an inpatient psychiatric unit. The first four suffered from psychotic disorders—two with bipolar disorder and two with schizophrenia—and the fifth from severe alcoholism and early dementia. Each of their works are closely connected to specific memories I have of their treatment, but they can also be appreciated for their own sake, I think, as glimpses into strange and fearful states of mind that are felt by so many but so rarely talked about.
Maria
“Maria”, a 21-year-old woman with bipolar disorder, was hospitalized for mania. Her older brother had schizophrenia, and psychotic disorders ran on the mother’s side. When her mania was resolving, I asked her to draw me a picture of her childhood:
“A typical dinner. My brother receiving info from AI & aliens while me and my dad ooze pain and sadness. The line work represents our experiences.”
Maria offered me this drawing the following day, again on the theme of her brother’s illness. She had drawn it after a group therapy session focused on working with what is in our power to change versus what cannot be changed:
“What would you do if your brother was stuck in the upside down?”
Libby
Sometimes writing is all you have. “Libby” was a twenty-year-old woman with schizophrenia. She was so paranoid she would not speak to us, eventually indicating her only method of communication would be in writing due to unspecified legal fears. This is her attempt to give us information to contact her family:
She allowed me to copy around ten pages worth of writing, although she wrote many times more than that while hospitalized.
She also wrote about her rationale for refusing psychotropic medication, which she believed was against “the health code” and would result in her personal and financial ruin:
This continued for about a week, but eventually, with her family’s insistence, she agreed to take medication. She improved enough that she was willing to speak to us, and her idiosyncratic hash-marked handwriting started to normalize. Her speech and writing, however, remained stilted and disorganized, evidence of her ongoing thought disorder. Given the severity of her disease, she unfortunately remained significantly impaired when discharged back home.
Richard
“Richard”, a man in his early-30’s with schizophrenia, was hospitalized after three weeks of neither eating nor bathing. Like Libby, he was too paranoid and afraid to speak to anyone on the treatment team. He had brought a notebook from home filled with his writings, however, and after I expressed some interest in it, he turned out to be more willing to show me his written work than talk to me. Much of the notebook was filled with his thoughts on the supposed role he played in some kind of bitcoin conspiracy. The list at the end caught my eye, and helped prompt productive discussion.
Once he started taking medication, his condition improved markedly. We had a number of interesting exchanges about the social function of religion and the meaning of repentance. Most importantly, he avoided any of the “Game Over” options, and was discharged much improved.
Donald
“Donald” was a forty-five-year-old man with alcoholism and early-onset dementia. His family had cut him off some years before and he was totally alone. It was with Donald that I first came to know what truly desperate alcoholism looks like. He looked twenty years older than he was and already had at least one bout of pancreatitis and numerous alcohol-withdrawal seizures under his belt. He had a tremor, impaired balance, and decreasing executive function.
This is the end of a short poem he wrote; the beginning was omitted due to family details he included. He was discharged to a long-term rehab facility. His tremor was still resolving when he wrote this:
Trisha
“Trisha”, a nineteen-year-old woman with bipolar disorder, was in the third trimester of her first pregnancy when she developed severe mania. She was hospitalized when she could no longer safely care for herself. One morning I walked into her room and she was holding this paper up against her window, facing an empty, locked, courtyard. She was desperate to escape, first, because her delusions told her that we were the police plotting to take her to prison in order to force her to get an abortion, and second, for the much more sensible reason that neither she nor any other patients were allowed outside while hospitalized. At one point she asked me a question that many patients have subsequently asked in various ways: “How do you think any of us are going to get better without going outside? Haven’t y’all ever heard of getting some fresh air?”
She has a point, doesn’t she? Of the psychiatric hospitals I have been to, I can think of very few that allow patients to go outdoors with any regularity, and many cannot accommodate it at all.
Dr. Greenwald is a psychiatrist practicing in the midwestern United States. He is on Substack at Socratic Psychiatrist.
Interesting that a person of legal age is given medications and treatments to help resolve their mental illnesses. Yet in todays’ psychiatric field, patients under legal age are not helped with their mental illnesses but affirmed in their abnormal beliefs ( if it is the correct belief in line with the facility). Children are castrated, sterilized and surgically mutilated by the “medical professionals” without a word from psychiatrists.
But… if a child identifies as anorexic…. The child is NOT allowed to have liposuction or gastric bypass if they request it.
What if the child identifies as a pirate ??? Is the correct tx an amputation of a leg to fit a wooden peg-leg? Removal of an eye to justify a patch or hand to apply a hook?
Just my thoughts on modern psych medicine.
Dr. Greenwald, I would love your take on the much less talked about side effect of psychiatric medications - sexual dysfunction. I keep hearing about PSSD from some patients on therapy. How is the evidence base on Post-SSRI sexual dysfunction as an iatrogenic harm caused by psychiatric medications? Thank you so much for your compassionate and enlightening articles. I enjoy reading and learning from them.