Yes. With almost every death I was left with the feeling that somehow it was my fault and that only if I'd done something else, or better, things would have different. I had a difficult time with my own mistakes - I often referred myself to the Quality Department when I made a mistake only I knew about.
Yes. With almost every death I was left with the feeling that somehow it was my fault and that only if I'd done something else, or better, things would have different. I had a difficult time with my own mistakes - I often referred myself to the Quality Department when I made a mistake only I knew about.
I felt the same way when I asked hospice to make sure my dad wasn’t in pain. I was known as the “minimize opioids to the maximum” chronic pain clinician so when I asked them to be liberal for dad, people noticed. When he passed 12 hours after getting into hospice I thought, “My God it’s my fault he OD’d”. Which of course there was no OD. Took some time to throw my ego aside and now I am grateful he went in peace, and it had nothing to do with anything I did or did not suggest.
Yes. With almost every death I was left with the feeling that somehow it was my fault and that only if I'd done something else, or better, things would have different. I had a difficult time with my own mistakes - I often referred myself to the Quality Department when I made a mistake only I knew about.
I felt the same way when I asked hospice to make sure my dad wasn’t in pain. I was known as the “minimize opioids to the maximum” chronic pain clinician so when I asked them to be liberal for dad, people noticed. When he passed 12 hours after getting into hospice I thought, “My God it’s my fault he OD’d”. Which of course there was no OD. Took some time to throw my ego aside and now I am grateful he went in peace, and it had nothing to do with anything I did or did not suggest.